tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-314386612012-02-13T12:05:36.174-06:00<blockquote>“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”</blockquote>(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.comBlogger1521100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-67044524547012353172011-02-25T00:12:00.000-06:002011-02-25T00:12:27.101-06:00

I've been on tumblr for years now, and I hate to admit that I've abandoned my blogspot for so long.. but now I'm back =) Why? For a couple reasons. First of all, blogging on tumblr just doesn't seem appropriate all the time. It gets reblogged onto my facebook (which I do appreciate but not all the time. I like to be able to vent without everyone seeing it ;) Plus, Having a space on blogger

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you may have wondered why i haven't posted a blog here in a while.. well.. it's time to say good bye.. that's right, i'm going to discontinue updating this blog, but i will still continue to have it up.. mainly for nostalgic reasons. but the good news is: I have MOVED to tumblr actually i've been there all along, but now i'm tired of having multiple personal blogs.. i also have another

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^ how do you keep a calendar so EMPTY?! ^StumbledUpon this article that, as simple as it is, was like clouds parting to let sunshine in my life.. I've been saying how hectic my schedule is nowadays, but I'm thinking, I could clear things up a bit.. This semester is going by great so far though.. I'm not only keeping my head above water in my classes.. I'm actually getting ahead! My commitment to

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So I spent a good hour with a friend of mine today.. I don't ever really talk to him too much, mainly because I never realized we had anything in common. He's a big time basketball player, and I'm definitely not. hahaAnyway, we picked up his girlfriend from the airport today and I learned from the car ride home that they hadn't seen each other in 3 months. He's been busy in the Philippines and

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i don't know how to keep him happy anymore. i don't know how to make him realize im not happy anymore. i don't know what to do to make things easier anymore. i don't know what to do to stop crying. i don't know how to convince myself that he still loves me the same way.. he still considers me one of his priorities..i'm just done.. i am so very much done.

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Rainbow Cone!Originally uploaded by JOE M500man.. I really want some ice cream.. but not just any ice cream.. I NEED to try this Rainbow Cone ;)

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Hello my name is Justine, and I am generation confused. Despite how much YOUNGER I look than my age, I act much older than I really am. I don't go out drinking much, and when I DO go to the occasional bar or club, it's mainly because my friends want to go or there's nothing else open and I don't want to go home yet. But at the same time, I would much rather spend a quiet night in with JJ,

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Holy cow, is it August already?? I'm starting to think how the rest of the world is thinking: summer is flying by so quickly. Actually, it feels like this whole YEAR is zipping by me much too quickly..I'm considering all the things I have yet to accomplish this year, and realize I've only got 5 more months til 2010!Sooo.. list time.Things to Do Before 2010: (edit: sadly I'm compared this list

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I cannot WAIT until March 2010! I'm reading the novel now then watching the Disney rendition after I finish the book.. I know, I'm kinda nerdy by doing all this...On another note, I'm sooo hooked on all choreo by Rino (boogiezone).. look her up ;)Here's a video of her collaboration with BBoy Legacy:

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I've been having some major bouts of low self-esteem and confidence and I'm really not sure why.. I mean, I know it's because of the weight gain, but still.. I feel like I really should just suck it up, know I am who I am, but it still gets to me.Today, however, JJ told me he still finds me beautiful.. and a good friend of mine told me I was prettier than one of our other friends (who is UBER

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I'm heartbroken. I miss you.. I miss how we used to be... I miss how you used to appreciate me more.. I miss being spoiled (not with materialistic things... with love).. I miss being wanted.. I miss being confident.. I miss the butterflies.. I miss how you used to RESPECT me...Things have changed. In a sense, you stopped treating me like a girlfriend and you've started looking at me as your wife,

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"Joe had never thought he was going to get married. Had been quite happy living the quintessential bachelor lifestyle, but by his early thirties he'd started to think it might be quite nice to have some permanence, someone to come home to, to look after him.The problem was that the girls he went out with were about as far away from wife material as you could possibly get. Yes, they looked great

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-43454047200045671212009-05-22T12:28:00.002-05:002009-05-22T12:42:39.117-05:00

In the past year, I've developed a number of hobbies / collections that I still am absolutely hooked on:photographybakingscrapbooking / card makingvinyl toys (this is slightly diminishing with every paycheck that needs to go to other purposes & hobbies lol)But now I'm truly considering adding something new to the mix..Sewing.Why?Because I would like to own clothes and purses and other cute items

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So, I'm all for saving money and can definitely say I struggle with it often.. but there are some patients that come to our store that drive me INSANE with their ridiculous financial solutions..For example.. we have one patient who is on public aid (ILMED).. generally, all generics are sold at no charge, and preferred brand names (those that do NOT have a generic available and are considered

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COURAGE is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all. - Princess Diaries :)

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PLACES I WANT TO GO TO TAKE PICTURES:Union StationWicker ParkLincoln ParkArgyle / Chinatown SquareCantignyLP or Brookfield ZooNavy PierAssorted hotel lobbies downtown :)Chicago Botanic GardensI'll be going on photographic adventures (which of course will include plenty of FOOD adventures as well) as often as possible.. So if anyone would like to join me, FEEL FREE! :) God knows how much I would

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The other day, I had one of our regular elderly customer come in.. He's about 80 years old, and he's the sweetest man ever. He lives alone (widower) and is pretty independent.. Well, when he came in, he was obviously very much in pain and a little upset.. I asked him if he was okay, and he replied:"You'll never believe it. Over the weekend, I was rear-ended at a stoplight. A 15year old girl

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1. If you could skywrite anything you wanted, what would it be?Just keep driving2. Did you get drunk at your prom?nope3. What is your favorite spice to use cooking?Lemon Pepper :)4. What color is your roof?uhhhmm.... i have no idea lol maroonish brown i think? lol5. In a land far, far away I _____________swam with the fishes and crashed into coral6. In the Miss USA pageant, Miss California was

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Dick and Jane (Pharmacy Version)pharmacychick at 9:30 pm on Tuesday, April 14, 2009See Dick fall and go boo boo.See Jane take Dick to the doctor.Dick broke his arm.Dick needs some medicine.See the Doctor write Dick a prescription.See Jane Drive Dick to the Pharmacy.See Dick give the prescription to the pharmacist.Dick forgot his insurance card. UH OH, Bad Dick!Jane didn’t bring her purse. UH OH

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Okay, so it's a lazy Sunday, and I've decided to answer someThursday Thunks. 1. Recently Berleen and I discovered the allure of the Twilight series. Have you ever been sucked in to the latest "thing"? (Like Harry Potter, the movie Titanic, social networking, etc. etc. etc.)Definitely get hooked on the social networking sites.. I'm on facebook, myspace, and twitter religiously. Sadly, I tried to

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I have more arguments in my head than actually get my point across to him. ugh.This is what happens when my reasoning is "choose your battles wisely"... I never end up saying what needs to be said because I don't know what I SHOULD be bringing up!I am so annoyed / stressed / peeved right now. Ugh.

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I feel as if the reason for my lack of blogging is because I've recently been hooked on the "quick-blog" ideals behind twitter. Because my cell is attached to the account, I can blog a few words just by texting.. or I can easily access it from the web on my sidekick too... It's just a lot more convenient than sitting down and blogging during my hectic schedules.Anyways, enough of THAT plug. This

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Is there anything to cure nostalgia? I can't stop thinking about the old days.. my old friends and all the memories and times we used to spend together. JJ thinks it's an easy solution - just hang out with them.But somehow it's not that easy.. in 8th grade, we all went to the same school, saw the same 25 people (yep, grad class of 25), and knew each others' ins and outs.. but then high school

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-10360373548524694012009-03-25T22:20:00.003-05:002009-04-05T16:10:29.683-05:00

So I have the night to myself again, and I figured I'd do some catching up.. I've been pushing off writing my grandparents (in the Philippines) a spontaneous "love letter".. so I sat down and got to work! The instant I got comfortable, I realized how difficult it was for me. I wasn't sure where to start.. I wasn't sure what was going to be appropriate to talk about.. I don't ever hide anything

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-66741311050224898862009-03-24T23:50:00.002-05:002009-04-05T16:10:53.190-05:00

Obama 1, Reporter 0.Q: "Why did you wait days to react to crisis.?"A: "Because I like to know what I'm talking about before I speak."HA!*borrowed from redeye via twitter.

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So, JJ bought my birthday present early! When I found out, I was at work, on the phone with him. As soon as he told me he was, at that very moment, purchasing a digital SLR, I almost screamed! I was so excited and giddy about it that I almost ended up crying at work! hahaha.. what a sight that would have been..That was Thursday night, and yesterday was a pretty nice night out.. so we went

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So I'm currently babysitting, which means the tv is tuned to NickJr while I'm stumbling and online shopping. While I am wasting time doing absolutely nothing productive, I notice what the kids are watching: what looks and sounds like a Chinese Dora the Explorer!Now introducing:Ni Hao, Kai-lan... Nick Jr's coolest show ever.. or at least in my opinion anyway. Similar to Dora, Kai-lan teaches

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-68928986623810776102009-03-03T12:07:00.003-06:002009-03-03T12:12:00.657-06:00

After applying some simple algebra to some trite phrases and cliches a new understanding can be reached of the secret to wealth and success. Here it goes. Knowledge is Power Time is Money and as every engineer knows, Power is Work over Time. So, substituting algebraic equations for these time worn bits of wisdom, we get: K = P (1)

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This past weekend was pretty easy-going.. JJ and I went out with his brother and our friend, Franco on Saturday. First we went to iLL Garage to talk to the guys about installing / ordering parts for JJ. Franco was pretty upset because 1) his car got towed for parking on the wrong side of the lot (lame business owners who aren't even there on weekends!!!) and 2) he was super hungry.Sooo, we

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I can't say that I'm the best baker in town.. I am, in fact, far from that.. I just know that I love to bake.. and I love to share what I create with everyone I love.. (and everyone that loves the finished products haha) It's one of my biggest obsessions at the moment.. and something I'm practicing more and more. I'm hoping to become a professional someday and it's something I'm taking pretty

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-2994816061894208862009-02-25T12:52:00.003-06:002009-02-25T13:51:08.741-06:00

I'm in a grumbly mood. I'm disappointed in a new experimental cake mix gone wrong. I baked the first 6 test cupcakes and didn't get the consistency and fluffiness I wanted. I altered a few components and still failed to get a good cupcake. I was so frustrated with the whole recipe that I just gave up on it altogether.To put myself in a better mood, I've started planning out my birthday party.

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I've been hooked on my web-browsing a lot more than usual.. and included in my usual clicks is The Sartorialist. I love the "just your average day" look combined with fashion.. every "model" they use has such an ordinary, yet extraordinary look to them.. in relation to both their clothes and their own beauty.Not a major post, I just thought I'd share an amazing find.. I just finished baking, so

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-62479334137621610582009-02-18T17:07:00.001-06:002009-02-18T17:11:58.214-06:00

I can't WAIT!

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-41340994537362259792009-02-17T12:33:00.002-06:002009-02-17T12:54:19.020-06:00

I know, I know... IT'S NOT SPRING YET! Lately, however, it has felt as if it's that time of year to break out the sunny days wardrobe. And it hasn't helped that I've been doing TLC marathons a lot lately :)So, since I have the weekend to myself, I really do want to start my spring cleaning early. I want to get rid of a lot of clothes that I don't wear anymore and probably donate it to Goodwill

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-69128029979762116112009-02-11T18:14:00.003-06:002009-02-11T18:26:46.522-06:00

When did we start running out of things to say?When did we suddenly have so little interests in common?I feel like I've suddenly stepped into a different world.. that we're suddenly not the same anymore. It doesn't mean I don't love you anymore, it doesn't mean I'm doubting any of our choices.. but suddenly it doesn't seem so easy.Not that it was always easy. I know I've made it completely

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-18222777743550714942009-02-08T15:29:00.002-06:002009-02-08T15:37:39.862-06:00

So, JJ called off on Friday and Saturday, which leaves Sunday for me to catch up on all the things I normally do on weekends...As much as I blog about how I hate his job and wish we could have every weekend together, I do appreciate the time for "me myself and I". I had a lot of fun this weekend because the weather was so beautiful (60 degrees in JANUARY?! WHAT?!?!).. but now it's time to get

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I never really looked into the meaning behind my Chinese Zodiac symbol. I am a Rabbit - that I've known for as long as I can remember... but I am, specifically, a Fire Rabbit. (Hey guess what, I'm an Aries. ;) Fire is definitely my thing)So what does it mean to be a Fire Rabbit? It's funny because when I looked it up, I laughed because SO much of the descriptions are so descriptive of my own

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What a whirlwind of events and thoughts..First of all, despite being SUPER dramatized by money, I feel that my life is actually in a very good place right now. For the moment, I am actually sitting back, realizing that I am virtually happy and satisfied with the way things are going.I think part of it is that I cleaned up a lot today... I rearranged a few pieces of furniture, I sold a few books

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-83213327547671984622009-01-25T23:30:00.006-06:002009-01-30T01:09:41.963-06:00

Well... JJ had work, I'm pretty broke, so what better to do but bake! I had limited resources (read: every recipe I wanted to try, I was short ONE ingredient!!) so I resorted to good ol' chocolate cupcakes. I had some extra frosting left over from two different baking days so I used some food coloring and made some very vibrant pink and green strawberry whipped cream frosting!Anyway, this entry

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Okay Okay... I have 2 months and 1 day til my birthday... but I'm kinda sorta already shopping... lolwell, here's my birthday wishlist ;)hand mixer (sur la table)decorating bags plus tips (sur la table)Cre8tive Peeples (urban outfitters)Amongst Friends Neon belt (digitalgravel.com)freshly baked (johnny cupcake)'Creativity' women's tshirt (digitalgravel.com)Shirred V-Neck Sweater in green (

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Is this a sign of getting old? That going out for dinner now means popping up the road to a comfortable, cozy local restaurant? That I never have to even consider making an effort with my clothes? That not only am I always home by eleven o'clock, but that if I weren't I might die of exhaustion?-Bookends, Jane GreenEvery time JJ doesn't have work, I usually stay home and either stumble along

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-21674696732942440952009-01-23T11:33:00.002-06:002009-01-23T11:55:41.417-06:00

Recently I've become re-addicted (new word) to baking. I always loved making cookies, but I've "graduated" to cupcakes. I think my favorite was the red velvet cupcakes I made for JJ's birthday... It's a lot of work, but I absolutely love the turn out.. even if it isn't the best looking.But in the midst of my cupcake Monster craze, I've pushed off one of my other hobbies. I stopped scrapbooking

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-32823594320131506112009-01-20T23:38:00.002-06:002009-01-21T00:23:47.504-06:00

So I got my eyebrows done today... and I absolutely LOVE the outcome...Before:AFTER:The best part -- it was $4! Best deal I've ever gotten on pampering myself =) I absolutely love getting my brows threaded... and a new salon just opened up less than a mile away from my house! I'm definitely not using my car to get there at all once it gets warm out... PLUS there's a nail salon even CLOSER...I'm

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I've only been to the Philippines once.. and stayed for only 2 weeks..Lola Precy comes to visit once a year and usually stays about a month..Lolo Pete comes to visit once a year (if even that) and stays about a week and a half...We rarely see each other, we rarely talk to each other, but these are my two MOST favorite people in the world.. I love them so much and miss them even more..I don't

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-57755499471209513402009-01-14T13:11:00.003-06:002009-01-14T13:59:52.346-06:00

It's JJ's 23rd birthday tomorrow, and THANK GOD I have a day off today.. (even though I feel soo lethargic - due to the biting winter weather)I have much to do, including shopping, bills to pay (so I don't worry about it this weekend), and BAKING!His birthday mini cakes:Red Velvet Cupcakes =)*Thanks to Recipe Girl for this pictureSo far, I've gathered all my ingredients except for a few garnishes

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-66847357346316404102009-01-11T15:20:00.008-06:002009-04-05T16:10:05.579-05:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?When It Started - The Strokes "Why oh why.. I don't know" lolWHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?Forgive them Father - Lauryn Hill"Beware the false motives of others Be careful of those

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-79626995396378384342009-01-10T02:14:00.004-06:002009-01-11T19:43:55.050-06:00

So, I've come to realize that I haven't been motivated to do much lately... I mean, there's a lot to do, and I'm glad I was able to accomplish some of my short-term goals (cleaning the basement, getting a pedicure, getting my eyebrows re-threaded, etc), but I have this huge urge to do something big...((LIST TIME!!))Things to Do for 2oo9:*side note: I'm sure this list will be constantly growingBuy

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-28951229420576017712008-12-28T02:11:00.006-06:002009-01-10T03:37:38.001-06:00

I miss being independent. I guess, in a way, I also mean being anti-social, but not all emo-type though. I used to be able to control my own life and decide on my own how my day would unravel. I used to be more organized and on-task with my goals.Now I've let the choices of others control the choices I make for myself. It's not even that I want them to make the decisions for me.. I am becoming

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-81095645758329690332008-12-17T21:48:00.003-06:002009-01-10T03:34:39.414-06:00

It's from such a long time ago (was it really that long?), and it's been used OVER AND OVER for 8th Grade dances, homecoming slow dances, wedding songs, and cheesy dedications to girl- and boyfriends.. But I still love it. I'm so lame hahaThis edition of the song is one that I actually just finished witnessing on wttw... and I love Babyface's and his brother's voices together... I forgot about

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-14668042209320885232008-12-16T23:37:00.005-06:002009-01-10T03:37:09.193-06:00

Why do girls care so much about their looks? What compels us to worry in such excess about how we will be judged by women and men alike? I can't say that I am a woman apart... I am guilty of such behavior as well. But honestly, I'm starting to not care. I'm done dressing "trendy" and stylish. I just want to be more practical. I think it has to do with the fact that I'm so comfortable in my

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-85047276343253917342008-12-16T23:03:00.005-06:002009-01-10T03:36:54.922-06:00

So we just finished watching Love Actually. And I truly enjoyed it... but... I realize now how differently I watch these movies.Once upon a time, I would watch all these romantic comedies (sucker for Hugh Grant). I would hope that one day someone would (figuratively) sweep me off my feet and give me a happily ever after. Then I went through a phase of hating The Notebook and A Walk to Remember

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-51320424506024134502008-12-02T02:04:00.001-06:002009-01-10T03:38:11.548-06:00

Baby's got a brand new toy ;)

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-53885385663514873772008-12-02T01:32:00.004-06:002009-01-10T03:38:54.718-06:00

*borrowed.How old will you be in 3 years​?​​ 24 Do you think​ you’​​ll be marri​ed by then?​​ (obviously haha) What do you look forwa​rd to most in the next 2 month​s?​​ winter break. Who was the last perso​n you calle​d?​​ JJ Who was the last perso​n you hugge​d?​​ JJ What were you doing​ 5 hours​ ago? leaving work Paren​ts separ​ated/​​divor​ced/​​marri​ed?​​ married Last time you saw your dad?

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-70385959256071998322008-11-29T23:30:00.002-06:002009-01-10T03:39:11.757-06:00

JJ needs a break. He deserves a good time... a small getaway.-sigh-I need to come up with something quick... Something low-maintenance, but fun.I think I got it. Just gotta do my research :)

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-64236210026366972432008-11-28T02:04:00.004-06:002009-01-10T03:39:57.170-06:00

So here I am, listening to music, burning CDs onto my laptop, while JJ tries to reassemble an airsoft that he disassembled (fail baby. fail.)... and I've decided I'm doing most of my Christmas shopping online. :)Except tomorrow.In only 5 hours, I'll be at the local used book store, which is having a 20% off sale, plus the first 100 customers get a free bag + a chance to win a $100 gift card...

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-38701983641080791752008-11-24T00:29:00.004-06:002009-01-10T03:40:20.859-06:00

These are in no order whatsoever... Except of course the first one... I think... but then again, I could find other things more important, or just as important, later on... Well, we'll see. I'll just start :)I fit in your nook.You love me for exactly who I am... all the beauties.. all the "uglies".We just celebrated out 1st anniversary... it's been exactly a year since our first date.. and a

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-73510059386023394462008-11-20T00:53:00.003-06:002009-01-10T03:40:47.010-06:00

How amazing would THIS be?!I am deathly afraid of heights, yet seeing this made me want to be up in the air..Next summer Need-to-Do:Hot Air BallooningSee: Cluster Ballooning

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-58076049102988604732008-11-19T00:49:00.004-06:002009-01-10T03:41:49.761-06:00

I hate fluorescent lights. I prefer lamps.Flourescent lights expose the ugly side of people, while lamps create a soft, warm glow.Flourescent lights hurt my eyes when I'm just waking up, while lamps help my eyes gradually adjust.Flourescent lights make me think of working (in a stressful atmosphere), while lamps make me think of reading (in a cozy atmosphere)."Flourescent lights" is probably not

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-42804068927331387392008-11-11T11:08:00.005-06:002009-01-10T03:42:18.153-06:00

By the start of summer, I really wanna achieve my goals... These have been put off for so many months, due to several "excuses":1) Pure lazy attitude2) Re-organization of priorities -- family issues. "moving". family issues.3) No time for relaxation - every time I DO find time to do these things, I end up sleeping now. hahaSo.. without further ado, my early resolutions:[1] Read more books![2]

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(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-30428637604948956762008-11-06T11:55:00.002-06:002009-01-10T03:43:16.929-06:00

This is going to be my next big purchase. =)Add the $30 for WiFi and $75 for a DVR Recorder, and I'll be good to go! =D

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-45933159124890544172008-11-06T11:25:00.005-06:002009-01-10T03:53:46.816-06:00

People are never satisfied. We come up with new things to complain about every single day.Whether it's being stuck in traffic, crappy weather, crying babies in a waiting room, (preteens), politics, or cold food, there are always negative comments.The past few days was beautiful weather. Yesterday I had a customer who still found a reason to complain:"What is going on with this weather? It's

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-22827622089759400192008-10-28T10:08:00.003-05:002009-01-10T03:44:44.525-06:00

I think I'm starting to take things for granted, so I want to take a step back to just acknowledge how much there is I need to be grateful for...The most important one: I am now in a position in my life where I could truly be completely comfortable and satisfied.. I'm still at that stage of marital bliss, where virtually nothing could challenge how much I love my husband.Which brings me to I

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-10547903948522141362008-10-28T01:50:00.006-05:002009-01-10T03:46:15.204-06:00

So I've changed in so many ways over the past year alone. I mean there are the obvious changes that have lead me to the happiest moments of my life:Getting on that train for a first date. Getting on the train to his house after the first date.Saying YES ;) (on more than one occasion)Going back to school (not so much happiest... but it was a good turn in the right direction)Letting go of the past

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-66098021887783444602008-10-20T11:09:00.003-05:002009-01-10T03:53:16.939-06:00

R: So what nationality are you?J: I'm filipino.R: Oh, so do you speak Japanese?J: No. I'm Filipino. I speak Tagalog.R: Oh, I must have confused you with the other girl who works here.J: No, she's Vietnamese. She speaks Vietnamese.R: -sigh- Sorry. I can't tell any of you apart.C: So, what nationality are you?J: I'm Filipino.C: Oh, I have this awesome dragon thing at my house that my friend

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-85397439016403130242008-10-19T22:15:00.003-05:002009-01-10T03:47:27.554-06:00

I’m aware that in other countries, the idea of a “personal bubble” simply doesn’t exist. When you get into an empty elevator, you stand wherever you want.. but the instant a 2nd person comes in, you divide the space equally. As more people fill into the elevator, everyone creates a bubble around themselves and hopefully, no one steps into those invisible boundaries. Similar to this analogy are

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-64516644239974382372008-05-23T20:19:00.002-05:002008-05-23T20:22:22.632-05:00

It's so overwhelming. And I hate what it's doing to my life.I just want someone in my family to be happy with me about it. I want someone to hug me and tell me they're happy FOR me... I'm tired of only being in this family to buy this or that, or pick up this or look up that... I'm tired of working for this family. I miss being part of it.I hate that it's affecting how I am in my relationship

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-86525447306707029402008-04-08T11:29:00.001-05:002008-04-08T11:30:45.501-05:00

I'm tired of money problems..I'm tired of family problems..I'm tired of being so tired...=(I miss being 12 years old

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-36295292336257616902008-03-29T12:52:00.003-05:002008-03-29T12:57:03.358-05:00

So I just turned 21 (on Wednesday, March 26th) and to celebrate, I had parties lined up for Wednesday night, Friday night, Saturday night, and even Sunday night..After only half of the celebrations, I have come to realize that I'm not who I used to be.. Well, I mean I've known that I'm not one of those "crazy drunk party animals" anymore.. but it wasn't until last night's (mistakes) that I knew

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-8059419773388402882008-03-06T23:04:00.002-06:002008-03-06T23:12:41.237-06:00

I'm starting to move into a different phase of the relationship. I'm not in the mindset that I need to spend every moment of my free time with him, nor do I feel that I need to constantly be on the phone with him if we're apart..I'm comfortable being separate from him. I'm not losing faith or the love or anything.. I still want to have the beautiful future we have planned out already... I

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-63760082257137673582008-03-05T21:02:00.004-06:002008-03-05T21:11:02.403-06:00

conviction \kən-ˈvik-shən\an unshakable belief in something without need for proof or evidenceI don't need anyone to tell me how I should or shouldn't feel. I can't explain it, which means I can't give any of you proof of our love and the reality of everything that goes on between us.I am happy. I look forward to our future together, no matter how long it takes.I can't wait til he moves in this

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-20819657406686007952008-01-17T10:17:00.000-06:002008-01-17T10:22:21.866-06:00

Thursday, January 17, 2008 2:34amYou're probably sleeping but you gave me a txt earlier saying you're sorry, for what. =) you didn't do anything wrong, I was just being a big baby. i just realized that im being an idiot to someone that cares and loves me. I know your worried about your past, BUT IM NOT YOUR EX, I will NEVER break your heart or ever put you down. I made you cry today and you do

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-15528561230185239592008-01-16T23:58:00.000-06:002008-01-17T00:01:55.713-06:00

It was bound to happen. I haven't cried this hard in so long.."I'm putting my guard up""I can't handle you right now.."No.. No.. Not again... Please please don't be happening all over again..I'm pushing him away because of my stupid fucking past.. I hate him.. so much. I hate, hate, hate him for what he did to me.. for what it's doing to me now..What I have is as close to perfect as I'll ever get

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-44387518139351491662007-12-26T19:46:00.000-06:002007-12-26T19:47:39.832-06:00

ugh. came across a message on a radio station message board today:I was actually surprised on how many girls actually keep their babies at such a young age. I've had this discussion with my boyfriend. If I ended up pregnant, there would be absolutly no way I would keep it. (And he supports me 100%.) Like the other callers, I wouldn't even go through 9 months just to give it up for adoption. I

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-65455093991892344462007-12-23T05:30:00.001-06:002007-12-23T05:31:33.961-06:00

23 seems to be a pretty amazing number.a month ago he realized he wanted me to be his girlfriend.and today he realized he loved me.he worries that i'm going to realize i made a mistake.. or that he's going to get hurt badly..but i have no doubt in my mind whatsoever.. this is for real.i love him too..

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-1399966133137808462007-12-19T15:34:00.000-06:002007-12-19T19:33:50.523-06:00

Story #1I've known her since my freshman year of high school. She was the girl who threatened to beat up all the other girls. The girl who guys were intimidated by. The girl who got kicked out because she never went to class. She was "that girl". I come across her occasionally because people in her family are regulars at my work. She remembers me. In fact, last week, she was all smiles (a

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-31657534613093210182007-12-17T01:44:00.000-06:002007-12-17T01:50:14.986-06:00

I'm scared of relapsing into bad habits. I'm scared of someday getting paranoid and jealous again.. of someday getting too committed, too clingy again.. of someday getting hurt again..I know I'm past the infatuation stage because I already know it's not perfect. I already know I have a problem, but I don't want to talk about it with him yet because I want to try to make it not bother me so much

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-21340448512710710562007-12-13T09:54:00.000-06:002007-12-13T10:35:28.576-06:00

It's almost time to count down the end of the year again. As I look back on my blogs, especially the one around this time of year, I realize how much I've grown and changed. I realize how much I've gone through, whether they were big or little ordeals, amazing or insignificant stepstones, entertaining or disturbing moments..Every year, I start to get sad around this time, thinking of all the

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-34636350183044733422007-12-11T18:41:00.000-06:002007-12-11T18:42:12.359-06:00

"First Day Of My Life"This is the first day of my lifeI swear I was born right in the doorwayI went out in the rain suddenly everything changedThey're spreading blankets on the beachYours is the first face that I sawI think I was blind before I met youNow I don’t know where I amI don’t know where I’ve beenBut I know where I want to goAnd so I thought I’d let you knowThat these things take

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-68810358636843805862007-12-10T23:23:00.001-06:002007-12-11T18:41:07.378-06:00

Love is a strong word. I know I'm not there yet, but I can't help but feeling so completely *comfortable* with him.. It's funny though. I'm one of those people who roll my eyes at couples, wondering if they realize they're just being foolish.But I can't help but be hypocritical. I guess the reason I've been so degrading towards relationships is because of bad experiences. I've never had

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-74639342615063043872007-12-07T21:58:00.000-06:002008-12-10T16:18:42.750-06:00

After a study group session at Panera today, I decided to ditch any and all outings, parties, and get togethers possible and head to the used book store.Without even thinking I had spent 10 minutes searching titles, I had spent well over an hour getting lost in the the miscellaneous stories. Eventually, I minimized my selection to 6 new novels:The Dirty Girls Social Club - Alisa

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-81939774354813695022007-12-04T18:44:00.000-06:002007-12-04T18:45:18.561-06:00

Your life is an occassion. Rise to it.

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apparently i'm cute. i think i'm dumb. =PSo. I got to wondering if this is going to last. Because honestly, I want it to. a lot. I'm getting way ahead of myself, and I know I am.. but I can't help but realize that I got something amazing.. I have someone who I've needed and wanted..But I've been this girl that he's had a crush on for almost 3 years now.. What if he eventually stops crushing and

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-17925349275273783212007-12-02T15:15:00.000-06:002007-12-02T15:16:21.898-06:00

"Terrible ideas are like playground scapegoats. Given the right encouragement, they grow up to be geniuses."will respond soon. after i enjoy my day =)

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-62749887045341682312007-11-27T20:48:00.000-06:002007-11-28T11:35:21.594-06:00

My biggest fear has always been being alone. I'm scared of the dark, I'm scared of heights, I'm scare of a LOT of things, but the one fear that I've always had is dying alone, without anyone by my side.But I realize more and more every day that I shouldn't be this way. I don't NEED someone to tell me I'm going to be okay in order for me to be okay.. I don't NEED someone to tell me I'm beautiful

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-67514356795634967672007-11-25T00:57:00.000-06:002007-11-25T01:07:50.739-06:00

This time around, it's going to be different.I'm with someone who's different from all the other guys I've dated -someone who promises to try his best to keep me happy..someone who wants to take care of me..someone who constantly compliments me..someone who appreciates me for simply who i am..someone who i know deserves better than i can give..[* Random thought: My bed feels more lonely than ever

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-85107669989786975962007-11-21T21:48:00.000-06:002007-11-22T03:08:13.893-06:00

"I'm not afraid of you because you've had hard times. I'm afraid of people who haven't"I'm excited. I've finally found someone who treats me the way I should be treated.. who doesn't stop appreciating who I am.. who gives me BUTTERFLIES everytime i talk to him..And I can't stop smiling! I can't stop listening to all my love music again! I just can't stop being happy!Date is planned for Friday.

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-22650932054820880372007-11-20T03:12:00.000-06:002007-11-20T03:15:33.906-06:00

I need to stop smiling so much. It's dangerous. LOLBut seriously.. I'm scared I'm going to end up getting my hopes up again, then having my heart broken even more..But it feels so nice having someone interested in me =)

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-23517940478350368672007-11-17T12:34:00.000-06:002007-11-17T12:35:46.714-06:00

"One of Sinatra's favorite toasts to make with glass in hand was, 'May you live to be 100 and may the last voice you hear be mine.' The master is gone but his voice will live forever." - Tony BennettSo timeless.

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-50339074539013316682007-11-16T02:40:00.000-06:002007-11-16T02:41:48.472-06:00

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-4330524646626983822007-11-15T12:24:00.000-06:002007-11-15T12:31:21.618-06:00

=] I haven't smiled this often in so long. It feels so good.I'm back to being independent. Back to being in control of my life. I'm back to being me.And of course, that also includes the boy problems. hahaha ;)

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-25972246989034544652007-11-10T03:06:00.001-06:002007-11-22T03:17:16.390-06:00

One thing I keep forgetting is to keep my mouth shut lolEspecially late at night.I like a guy, I'm interested.. I blow it. How? I talk too much.Oy.Too bad.. I'm pretty sure I scared him away..Too bad.. He's one of the 'nice guys'..Too bad.. I'm definitely not..Oh well.. doesn't mean I'm giving up. :wink:

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-86410462225252054972007-11-08T21:36:00.001-06:002007-11-08T22:26:02.683-06:00

I created my very own first breakup rule: Destroy all pictures where he looks sexy and you look happy.Breakup rule No. 2: Until emotionally stabilized, enter no stores.Breakup rule No. 3: Never stop thinking about him, even for a moment.because that’s the moment he’ll appear.And finally, the most important breakup rule: No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes to heal,you’ll never get

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-7763076459034446002007-11-08T11:20:00.000-06:002007-11-08T11:27:11.453-06:00

Recently, I cut him out of my life. Well, to be more accurate, he chose to cut me out of his. I knew it was the best thing to do but I was still scared. I was scared I'd be lost without having someone, even if that person treated me terribly. I was dependent on his presence.But now that I step back and look at the situation, I realize how great it's been since we went out separate ways. My

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-86824115222086146492007-10-19T19:16:00.001-05:002007-10-19T19:17:46.077-05:00

the truth is.. sometimes you just want to be missed by the ones you miss the most..the truth is.. sometimes you just want to be "the one that got away"..the truth is.. sometimes you realize that all the effort shouldn't have been so difficult.. there are some things that should just come easy.. but at the same time, there are things that require a lot of effort..but the truth is.. sometimes you

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They say the true friends are the ones that, no matter how long it's been since you last spoke to each other, you pick right back up where you left off.Until recently I didn't think this was true. I believed that in order to have a true friendship, you nurtured and babied the friendship so that it grew to be unbreakable. Suddenly I'm finding myself completely and utterly grateful for the 'true

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-44424049381701301512007-10-03T22:04:00.000-05:002007-12-17T22:55:15.458-06:00

what is it about having a relationship that keeps you so happy, so content? From my own personal experience, whenever I am IN a relationship, I feel much more secure and even more confident. I know I can stand on my own two feet, but somehow it seems easier knowing that someone will be there if you forget how to walk.Lately I've been so busy with all my commitments [work, school, gym] that I've

(defiant)convictionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00708013737854619456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31438661.post-56976891448996013372007-09-22T19:00:00.000-05:002007-09-22T19:03:34.175-05:00

I know that it's simple.. the things I like most are when we are together.. especially when we are alone..but sometimes I'm reminded by all the things that bothered me in the past.. I'm reminded of things that you do that I don't appreciate.. and it totally just kills the moment for me.Sometimes I feel used.. sometimes I feel neglected.. sometimes I feel like I'm acting desperate.. but I

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