A Change in Pace

Recently, I cut him out of my life. Well, to be more accurate, he chose to cut me out of his. I knew it was the best thing to do but I was still scared. I was scared I'd be lost without having someone, even if that person treated me terribly. I was dependent on his presence.

But now that I step back and look at the situation, I realize how great it's been since we went out separate ways. My life is definitely changing, and it seems as if it's going pretty well..

I decided I'm going to go back to studying the Bible. Last weekend, I checked out a variety show at a state university. I witnessed some amazing talent that brought me back to the days I used to be in youth group. As I sat there, I thought to myself, "it feels really comfortable to be listening to this again.." Ok, so that's a really bad way to put it. It doesn't really describe what was going on in my mind and body. But the instant one guy put the mic up and started to sing, it just hit me. I decided to go back to my Faith.

Moreover, I'm meeting new people. And it's pretty exciting. I almost gave up on the gentleman type, but I've been reminded plenty of times (which has been great) that there are still good guys out there.

I'm not as hardcore on my workout + diet routine, but to be honest, I'm happy with my body. Well, that is, until I see all the asian girls and their size 0 jeans. I will never be a 0.. mainly because I have big hips.. my confidence level of losing 10 lbs in the last one and a half months just dropped to the floor when I was on the dance floor with everyone. But now that I'm back home, and I'm comparing how I look now to how I used to look, I'm satisfied again.

And that's pretty much it.. I'm satisfied again.