Friday, October 19, 2007


Friday, October 19, 2007
the truth is.. sometimes you just want to be missed by the ones you miss the most..

the truth is.. sometimes you just want to be "the one that got away"..

the truth is.. sometimes you realize that all the effort shouldn't have been so difficult.. there are some things that should just come easy.. but at the same time, there are things that require a lot of effort..

but the truth is.. sometimes you realize he just wasn't worth a single lift of the finger.

Monday, October 08, 2007


Monday, October 08, 2007
They say the true friends are the ones that, no matter how long it's been since you last spoke to each other, you pick right back up where you left off.

Until recently I didn't think this was true. I believed that in order to have a true friendship, you nurtured and babied the friendship so that it grew to be unbreakable. Suddenly I'm finding myself completely and utterly grateful for the 'true friends' I have.

There's the people that I've known since grade school.. the ones that, throughout the course of going to separate high schools and growing up, we lost touch. It wasn't until college that we started talking again. Even then, I text or email them once in a blue moon. Yet every time we are able to reunite, it's as if we had seen each other just the day before.

And then there's the people from high school, especially from youth group during those years, that I grew up with.. that I became so intimate with that they knew me like the back of their hand. Even now, when I go to them for my own problems, they know me. I don't even need to explain the entire situation.. somehow, they already know..

My college friends are a whole different set of friends. They have known me for the least amount of time, and yet, without them, I don't think I would have been able to survive the past 3 years of my life. The only thing I worry about with this set of friends is that the friendship isn't unbreakable yet.. there's still a possibility of losing them if I don't keep in touch.. So while they may not be the 'true friend' type yet.. I think the friendships that have been developed so far can grow to be much more significant in later years..

I realize that lately I've been focused on myself and my love life a bit too much. In hoping that I'm taking a proper turn in my life, I'm grateful for the friendships that I have.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007


Wednesday, October 03, 2007
what is it about having a relationship that keeps you so happy, so content? From my own personal experience, whenever I am IN a relationship, I feel much more secure and even more confident. I know I can stand on my own two feet, but somehow it seems easier knowing that someone will be there if you forget how to walk.

Lately I've been so busy with all my commitments [work, school, gym] that I've almost completely neglected my social life. It is when I finally have time to breathe that I realize how long it has been since I've truly been able to let go and have a good time. I feel crunched for time, always thinking about everything I have to do once I get home. And even then, I'm hardly ever home anymore.. I'm simply too busy. With that said, I start to worry that I'm going to ruin my chances for developing any real friendships, therefore missing out on amazing experiences that could have happened. I'm not so worried that I'm not going to have any friends by the end of college.. but I AM worried that I'm going to lose parts of my personality. I'm extroverted, spontaneous, and a lot of fun. How sad is it that I'm worried about burning out before my 21st birthday?
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