relapse.

I'm scared of relapsing into bad habits. I'm scared of someday getting paranoid and jealous again.. of someday getting too committed, too clingy again.. of someday getting hurt again..

I know I'm past the infatuation stage because I already know it's not perfect. I already know I have a problem, but I don't want to talk about it with him yet because I want to try to make it not bother me so much first.. because I don't want to make a big deal out of it.. but I know that when I do, it will be a big deal.

It's the ex-factor. It's starting to hurt me. And I don't know why. But I'm starting to feel a bit annoyed, a bit stressed, a bit disappointed.

Blah. Relapse.